11/13/15 CD14

This month had been going fairly well. I wasn't really obsessing over everything like I have been the last few cycles. I know I have about six more days until I should ovulate, but I still test every afternoon (and sometimes again...and even again in the evening). So obviously no positive OPKs yet. This month I'm also doing BBT for the entire cycle, more or less. Weekends aren't always possible. It's hard to really see the whole picture here, but the first day I did my temps was 2 days after ovulation, so I missed the rise of the last cycle, but I do at least have something to work with this cycle.

I had managed to stay off the pregnancy boards for a few weeks, but I fell back into the black hole yesterday and got caught up on the message boards. I've seen several positives from the groups I stalk, so it's nice to feel some hope. At the same time, it is also a bit depressing because I feel like all I do is wait for a negative. It's also been hard to get in the mood this cycle. I've really had to force myself to have sex every other day. I guess it's good I still have a few more days before I really hit my fertile window. Maybe by then I'll have found my sex drive! I think a big part of the problem is all the symptoms I had last time. I really thought last month was going to be the month. I had so many symptoms and I was sure it was either because of a huge spike in progesterone or I was pregnant. But when I saw the progesterone level was even lower than it was on 100 mg clomid and all the negative pregnancy tests, I just felt deflated.