12/1/15 13DPO

This has been a really rough cycle. I think it's because I really had it in my head when I started this journey that I would be pregnant by Christmas. Every day and every negative test just reinforces the fact that I'm broken and the medications are not fixing me. At this point, I have no idea why I keep torturing myself with negative pregnancy tests. 

I have got much better at BBT though.

Yesterday and today I've had to push back tears nearly all day. And I know that a lot of that has to do with the fact that I'm getting ready to start my period, which is the whole problem! Sometimes I want to scream. Mostly cry, but sometimes scream. It also doesn't help that I've been really slacking at the gym.

My goals for last week:
1. Exercise 3 mornings and 3 full workouts at the gym
Status: 2 morning workouts and 1 gym workout. Yeah, that was bad. 
2. Limit dessert to 2 times this week, including sweet snacks. Status: Shannon's birthday cake made it on my plate for 5 days. 
3. Increase vegetables and decrease carbs--limit grains to 1 serving per meal.

Status: I don't know if I increased vegetables, but I didn't decrease. 

So the goals for this week: 

1. Exercise 3 mornings and 2 full workouts at the gym
Status: 2 mornings complete and 1 gym complete
2. Limit dessert to 2 times this week, including sweet snacks. Status: had chocolate chex mix last night (1/2 c ) 
3. Increase vegetables and decrease carbs--limit grains to 1 serving per meal.
Status: so far so good