Yesterday I went in for an ultrasound to measure my follicles. I had one at 19mm, one at 16.something and some smaller ones (several 11s and a 14). Even though I only had one technically mature follicle, I was told to go ahead and do the trigger shot last night. The shot will help those follicles mature a little faster and ovulate in around 36 hours. There's a decent chance the 16 mm one will mature to a potential egg during that time and a very small chance one of the smaller ones will as well, although I'm not holding out much hope. I did a half dose trigger (5000 iu) last night. I was a little overwhelmed when I got all the syringes and needles in the mail, but it was shockingly easy to mix up the solution and do the shot last night, even though that was a long needle!
I was so anxious for yesterday's appointment. All I could think about was all the things that could go wrong. I have had really tender ovaries for a few days, so I was sure I was either full of cysts, or had way too many big follicles and they wouldn't let me do the trigger. Turns out the days of anxiety were for nothing and in fact, I almost feel like I had the opposite problem. To only have one follicle over 18mm after taking Femara was very disappointing. And all that tenderness was probably all in my head.
Being injected with hcg means that the pregnancy tests (and ovulation tests) will be positive for now. I thought I would feel some sort of happiness to see a positive pregnancy test, even though I know it's just because of the shot and nothing more. So, I took a OPK and hpt this morning. The OPK was blazing positive, and the htp was positive as well. But it was very anticlimactic. I thought I would feel at least something, but didn't feel much of anything at all. So now I can either test out the trigger shot, or I can wait 2 weeks, and not test anything during that time. I don't have enough hpts to test every day, and have toyed with the idea of buying more from amazon. I don't know that I want to go through the emotional ups and downs of seeing positives continue to fade and never return. I have the one positive from this morning, and I can hold on to that. But waiting until January 1 to test (or for my period to start) may be very challenging, and honestly I don't know that I can do it. Every cycle I tell myself I'm going to wait, and I still end up testing around 8 DPO. I have never really had much in the way of willpower.
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