10/26/2015

I did more pregnancy tests over the weekend. They were negative too. Again, not exactly a shocker.

I didn't even bother to test today. I figure if some miracle happens, I'll know in a few days. I just don't want to see another stark white test. I can't handle that today. Yesterday, I went and had my cards read. I did two readings. The first one was with one of the ladies that read my cards last year. She told me a lot of the same things as last year about Shannon. And she said the same things about about some of my general life info, such as being intelligent, taking risks, etc. She told me that she saw a baby either late 2016 or early 2017. The second lady that did my reading said she saw a pregnancy in May 2016. That would put a baby in early 2017. Or I could be ready to believe anything that gives me the slightest bit of hope. But I will admit the thought of doing this 6 more times just about makes me sick. I mean obviously I'll continue to go down this road until I do get pregnant, but I was really hoping that would be sooner than May.